Another early morning. Why? I can't seem to sleep in anymore. As soon as the birds start chirping ~ I'm up! I had such a busy day yesterday that by 10 o'clock last night I was wiped. Every inch of my body just wanted to sleep. So I dragged myself into my bedroom only to see I had forgotten to put the sheets back on the bed after I washed them. Too much work, so I just crawled on top of the heap and pulled the comforter over me and fell asleep. I was that tired. I have never slept in an unmade bed before. But I must have been exhausted as I didn'tmove until 6 this morning. I needed that sleep!
More drama with people in this building (so happy I am leaving this place!) Twice people have said they want to take me out for luch before I leave. Unexpected but nice. So the first guy strings me along until I realize he has no money and is expecting ME to pay. So I have just avoided him for a bit. Yestrerday a girl I like came up to take a unit I had given her. She said we have to order chicken before you leave. So we did. Then she didn't pay. So I was left with a $51 bill. If i didn't already know these people I would be upset. But this is them,... this is what they are like and I know that. I like the people,... they just have issues. most of them are brain injury patients. So I have to give them allowances for that. You take the good with the bad with some of these folk. I just found it rather amusing that they asked me out for lunch and then I paid,.... lol,... you have to laugh I guess.
Today I have more people coming to look at furniture I'm selling. Every penny I can make will help. I am still on track financially and doing alright for the trip to BC. Every thing I need is already paid for. The plane ticket,... the taxi to the airport,... so the trip is covered. What I am worried about is when I get there. Once I am there all of my savings will have been wiped out. And I will have some expenses on the other side I will have to wait to get. A new tv (I am selling both of mine here) and whatever else I will need. Things are going to be so tight for awhile. But the balnce of what I am getting is worth it. If I'm going to be poor,... I would rather be poor in BC livng by the Pacific Ocean. You can't ask for more than that. Just get me to BC and I will get by. I have learned that it usually all works out in the end. I just have to be patient. You can't have eveything at once.
Today I plan on relaxing. Sitting out in the gazebo just enjoying the sunshine.
I have a whole new demeaner now. I am happier. I am more confident. I have hope for the future now. I always said I can't live with this pain if there nothing good as well to live for. NOW I have something good to live for I can cope with the pain.
I never dreamed that at 61 I would be selling my whole life and hoping on a plane with the clothes on my back. It sounds terrifying. But even though I am anxious, I am not terrified. I am looking forward to it.
Yesterday I went to the walk-in clinic to get my medications sorted out. We decided the best thing to do would be to put my prescription into the pharmacy here for the next 3 months and then once I move and get a new pharmacy they can transfer the prescriptions. I also asked for a larazapn for the plane. I am quite anxious about travelling this day and the doctor suggested I take one larazapan as soon as I am seated on the plane and that should keep me mellow for a few hours. I eagerly accepted this suggestion. I have not flown in 25 years. I am nervous.
So I have my coffe and Maggie at my feet sleeping on my toes. Today I do nothing but relax,...
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