The past few days have been chaos leaving me in a state of panic. My lawyer informed me that I should not be moving to BC right now. But after a few days of thinking about this ~ I dont' care about the case anymore ~ I am getting on that plane and I am moving to BC. Case or not. It's not right or fair that they can do this but at this point I am in survival mode and I just need OUT OF THIS TOXIC BUILDING. So plans to move are still on.
I was running into so many unexpected issues that I started to feel a bit panicky. My luggage I discovered wouldn't do. Too large and heavy. Now I needed new luggage. I had saved so much money and now I am watching it deplete like water through my fingers. $500 for putting Maggie down,.. $200 for new luggage,... I'm not sure how much for mailing stuff I can't bring in suitcases,... The cost of the taxi to the airport $200,... I have it all covered and paid, But it ate through my money very quickly. I now have precious little left and I am trying to hold on to it dearly. PLEASE don't let there be anymore unexpected expenses!!!!!! I don't have anymore to spend!
I broke down and asked for help yesterday. I have a difficult time asking for help. I don't know why, I just do. But I found myself in the middle of my living room completely overwhelmed. So I called Kirk. And even after me cutting him off because of something he did,... he dropped everything and came to help. He drove me into Guelph to buy luggage,...I got a new mouse for my laptop,... I got everything I had on my list of things I needed to do but couldn't without a car. He drove me everywhere and I got it ALL done. Thank you Kirk,... I can't tell you how helpful that was. It was sohelpful that last night I went to bed at 11 and I slept until 9 the next morning. I finally got some sleep. And I'm sure it's becasue all my problems I was worried about got solved. Now I was able to sleep. And I feel 100% better for it.
Ok,... I don't get a settlement. I am now living on $851 a month. So i called up Dianne (reluctantly as I was kind of breaking our deal) and told her everything. I was worried she would be upset but on the contrary - she had solutions. Book-keeping. If I can manage some office work,... she can find me a ton of work. Problem solved. I love admin work. And I can mange that. As long as I am allowed to work at my own pace - I can do that. So another problem solved. I don't know why I was connected to Dianne? Fate I imagine,... But it was the answer to all my prayers. Thank you Dianne ~ you have literally saved my life.
So things are back on track. I still have a million little things to sort out,... but now I have Kirk helping it has really lightened the stress load. I don't deserve Kirk,... but he never leaves my side when I call. He is a good man.
I have so much else to say but my hands are in pain and I can't type very well right now. So I will have to stop here.
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