I started taking my blood pressure medication again

Glory, Glory Man United!!!

Today has been another great day. A 3-0 win for Man U getting into the finals in the Europa League semi-finals. Ok, that was goboldigoop to most of you but to us Man U fans it was an important game. I always have a good day when my team wins.

I had a horrible night last night. BAD pain night. I have been doing way too much so I expected it. But that doesn't make it any easier to cope with the pain. I ended up staying up all night because I can never find a pain-free position in bed. So I was quite tired today. But it didn't seem to stop me from enjoying it.

I got rid of more stuff today. It's starting to look bare now. But instead of sadness, It has strangely felt freeing. With every item that goes out the door, I feel a little bit lighter. No regret. It's only stuff.

I hung out with a few more neighbours I hadn't seen in awhile. It was nice to be amoung people again. There are some good people in this building - they just hide away too like I do so I never see them. But it was nice to have a catch-up with them today. I will actually miss a few of them.

I had a major blow up with Tonya last night. Or rather I did all the talking while she tried to run into her apartment and hide. I gave her 8 years of my pent up frustration with her. I went IRISH,... But just like the Irish do,.. once you blow and have your say ~ it's done and overwith and I move on. So today I felt good. Even lighter for having had my say.

For so many years now I have been waking up miserable because of my situation,.. But now,..I wake up feeling good. I am the type of person who has to have a purpose each day. Something to do. And now I do. Now I am busy and I love it.

And here is something I am sure a lot of people are wanting to hear,... I started taking my blood pressure medication once again. Why? Because now I have a future so I want to live and be healthy to enjoy it. My goal is to become the healthiest I can. Get this arm and hand fixed,... get my mental health back on track with proper meds (I won't be flagged in BC so I won't get thrown in Homewood!) Now I don't fear asking for help. And now I want it. I want as much of it as I can get. 

Maybe 2025 is going to be my year!