There just doesn't seem to be a place for me on this planet for me

I am so overwhelmed. Nothing is working out and I am starting to panic. What is wrong with this world when $100,000 can't even save you? I have been on the internet for days now trying to find a place for me to live. But all I seem to get is no and resistence.

Why does noone want me???? 

I have looked into renting, buying, anything,.... but there just isn't a place for me on this planet.

I have sold a lot of my stuff so my apartment is pretty sparse right now. I am packing up,... selling off the rest,... yet I have nowhere to go. 

I send applications ~ they don't even call me back. I phone,... they actually seem annoyed I am bothering them. Story of my life,... a burden,... a bother,....

Maybe it's just time to do it. Everything else has failed and it's not from lack of trying. It's simply I am too poor and nobody wants to deal with me. Noone will take a chance on me,... I am too poor. 

When you have to research to find a place to live,... something is wrong. When you have to practically beg people to take you in,.... it's time to call it a day and just end it.

I should have ended it 10 years ago. But I held out hope my children would come back to me. They didn't. 

I just need to end it now.

I am done.