Life is so bad that noone will even see me to give me a home

Today has not been a good day,... 

My apartment is almost packed up,... I have sold everything I want to sell,... but I still have no place to go. The stress of the situation I am in right now is unbearable. I can't take much more. My plans are like sand running through my fingers. There one minute and gone the next,... slipped away as I found yet another impediment. BANG! I've hit another wall. And this is how my life has been for two years now. Every plan I make,... falls through. Every hope at a new idea to help me escape this prison ~ dashed by yet another obstacle,... and a person can only take so much disappointment before they give up completely.

Where is there a place for me on this planet??????????

I have scoured the internet all over Canada. But our society is in such decline that the ones on the bottom are losing,.... their homes,... their jobs,... their lives,.... and we have no place to go once this happens. How can a person have over $100,000 in their bank not be able to secure a place to live????? It's insane! And it's all because of my low monthly income. They see I only bring in $1583.00 a month they refuse to even let me talk about the apartment, RV, trailer,... I am just not a 'viable option' for these people.

When did society get so bad that we can't even find a home???

I cannot stay in this apartment building any longer. I am out and out suicidal living here. I have got to get out before I end it all. But HOW????? My things are sold,... packed,... all ready to move. But I have nowhere to go,...

I feel so invisable,... so disposable,... I don't want to die!!!! But it looks like that will be what happens. becasue I can't take one more day of this suffering. Pain with no doctor,... pain with no surgeries becasue I have no doctor,... and none will see me to give me a home.

I will be 63 this year. But will I even see my birthday????