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| This is my blood pressure just after Ontario Housing left my unit. This is actually the 3rd reading. The first 2 were so high they wouldn't register on the monitor just saying error. I am DYING! |
I just had the worst and most humiliating thing happen this morning. I asked S**** months ago for an emergency transfer but I got a no. I then told her that I will be going through MAiDs as I can't stay here and theres nowhere else I can go. Again - nothing. No help,... no let me look into it,... just NO!!! Today they came to do the annual maintenace check up and I refused to let her into my unit. This is how much that woman cares,....
I tell her my life was threatened and I'm unable to use the gazebo as I was told not to "or else". i told her I dont feel safe here and need to get out. No help. She knows I have a plane booked going to Vancouver to DIE! I told her I was going through Maids (although truthfully I am just going to go to the downtown eastside and take a fatal fentanyl overdose) MY Maids ~ since my country ignored me and left me feeling invisable too. Refused to help. Just left me to rot on my own when i couldn't cope anymore. And then, to add insult to injury,... they wouldn't give me Maids here in Ontario. No matter. In the end it will happen one way or the other.
Because no matter what ~ I am going to DIE!
Today she knocks on my door and with a big smile says hello how are you? She got the shock of her life when i asked that out of respect and dignity to me i would appreciate her not entering my unit. I told her why. I am too bitter and angry at S**** becasue she knows I'm ending my life and could have helped but CHOOSE not to. And knowing I am going to die - she smiled and said how are you like NOTHING WAS WRONG. TONE DEAF unfeeling cold hearted woman!
I was calm but firm and shut the door on her face. The other lady came in and she does her inspection and then (tone deaf) starts on about taps,.... so I looked her dead in the eye and screamed
"You guys just dont get it do you? I am going to DIE! I dont give one fuck about taps or things broken in this unit,... I will be DEAD by Septemeber!!!" And S**** could have helped but choose not to so I directly blame her for my death!!!!!! If she had helped - i would not be doing this."
I am so angry at the lack of empathy with Ontario Housing. We are just numbers to them that they can evict us like we're ants with the snap of a finger and they dont' give one shit about us as human beings.
I am so DISGUSTED in S****'s smiling happy face like nothing was wrong, that I wanted to punch her. TONE DEAF - A cold hearted uncaring person!!!!
I am going to die because S**** M****** just didn't want to,.....she couldn't be bothered,... it wasn't important enough to look into,... I was just another animal in the zoo making noise,..... not her concern.
I hate this world,... I hate Ontario Housing,... I hate the fucking system,.... and now it's just time to
DIE!
Life is fucking disposable if your poor and a nobody
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