My whole goal in life now is to die

I am sat here feeling totally defeated. No matter what I do or who I call ~ there is no help for me. There is no place for me to live,...

I have been on the internet for over a month now every single day souring all across Canada to try and find me a place to live. But there just isn't one,...

How badly has Canada sunk when $100,000 can't even save me. I am about $50 or 60 thousand short. I tried financing but my mortgage would be too high. I live in poverty,... I wouldn't be able to swing the monthly costs.

I called 24/7 to see where that woman was who promised to take me grocery shopping but I never heard from. I sat on the line for over 20 minutes waiting,... she wasn't there today and wont be in the offive for a few days. So I told her ,..."This is not a mental health crisis - I am lying in bed unable to move - unable to look after myself,... unable to cook or do laundry or even sleep as the pain is too severe now. But with no help,... all you guys can do is call me mentally ill and offer me THAT help,... so just forget it,.... I guess noone can help me" and I hung up. And thats exactly how I feel. I need help with a doctor,... with housing,... with grocery shopping,... but all they can offer is mental health help.

THAT IS NOT WHAT I NEED RIGHT NOW

I am looking for a place to buy - but no car to drive to see them.

I am too exhausted and in pain to get my groceries on a walker anymore,.... 

I am too fucking exhausted full stop

Today I just want to die

What kind of world does not help you - but refuses to let you die?

A fucked up world that just does not see you

Unless you are mentally ill - you are going to suffer.

I am moving up my plans now.

I have no intention of borading a plane to BC now. How can i enjoy a vacaation when I can barely move a muscle from pain??????

Fuck this world

I am done

now - I do things my way and I dont talk to a sole form this moment on

My whole goal in life right now is TO DIE!