But what they didn't know is I have a bank account now. So you see HAyley,... I didn't NEED your money. I wasn't after MONEY. I wasn't asking you to be my "parent". I had everything I needed. I just wanted to see you and get a hug. But you ASSUMED I wanted to live there or borrow money or in some way have you guys look after me. And that was the furthurst thing from the truth. When I called you,... I had everything I needed. I just WANTED to see you,... but you choose to tell people that YOU were the parent and I was the child in our relationship because,... well,... I don't know how you can say that. You ahve never given me anything. I have never asked for anything,... so how am I the child ruining your life??? BULLSHIT. You wouldn't let me near you. You would only ever text - never answer your phone,... so how the fuck were you playing the part of my parent. THAT IS A JOKE. The day after my accident you said you would come and help me,... you never showed up. Not a call,... not a text,... just a no show. That told me you didn't care how I was. For the record,... I was NOT ok. I desperately needed your help but you blew me off. Good parenting,....
So my kids don't deserve this money. They have done nothing but blame me for every problem in their life. My mother was so horrible,... and I dont' agree so if I'm such a terrrible mother,...
the you dont' get my fucking money!!!!!!!
So I have sat here trying to figure out what to do with it. It's sitting in a bank account - useless - as noone will rent to me so it's no good to me. I was origianlly going to put it in trust for my grand daughter but I have decided not to do that. My heart is broken that my daughter excluded me from her life. So I have decided that if they really truly think I am that much of a monster I can't even see my own grandchild? Then they get NOTHING from me.
But what to do with it then? I have decided to donate it. I have narrowed it down to two organizations. Toronto Sick Kids Hospital (where the twins were airlifted to) or to the Guelph organizations that bent over backwards to get me home to Ontario and get my old apartment back. Why should I give money to two girls who want nothing to do with me. Instead I feel it should go to the people who REALLY helped me when i was so desperate. I would love to find that young man who picked me up along the BC highway and drove me to the ferry. I would love to give $$$ to him as whether he knows it or not - HE SAVED MY LIFE. But I can't remember anything about him as I was so traumatized at the time.
So I am making an appointment with a lawyer to draw up my will. It will state that my two daughters and anyone else in my family is NOT to receivbe one dime of my money or any of my belongings. They are completely shut out. Just as they have shut me out,...
That money - I was so excited to get - can't help me escape this prison. So if I can't use it,... and I'm ending my life,... then someone has to get this money.
It's not too late for my daughters. But they will never reach out,... ever. And I'm done waiting,...
The homeless and Sick Kids are going to get my money.
And it will all be BEFORE Christmas.
It's not too late girls,... but with all the yapping you get from everyone else,... you will never see me as just a person who loves you and lives for her family. Instead I am a monster,...
It's not too late,... but I will know you only want the money,... not me.
P.S. for anyone concerned,... My kittens will be well looked after as they will be given away to a home that I have researched. They will already have had their operations to be fixed and they will come with a cheque to be looked after in the future. The will be up to date with the vet and well looked after. I won't leave until i know they are well looked after.
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