Time to die,... no future as I live in a closed up box

I am now so isolated I don't speak with another human being for weeks. I can see now why they use isolation as punishment in prisons. It fucks with your head.

I left social media. I no longer post and rarely open any of my profiles. But it's not by my choice. All i have is the blog, Facebook and Instagram but the last one I rarely use. Now,... I have nothing.

I am already isolated and alone sequestered in this apartment by myself. Now,... my windows have been taken away. I could just about bear the isolation because I at least had the internet. But now, this hidden troll has taken that away from me too.

I don't know who this troll is. All we know is the device they use which is apparently not their everyday device as it has no name conected to it. They think there are multiple people working together on Facebook as they seem to be coming from multiple profiles. You can only 'report' me once a day. Yet I am getting multiple "are you ok?" pop-ups so I am told this can only be done by multiple people. So it is someone and all her little minions,.... 

absolutely nothing I can do about it,....

So i closed up all social media. I no longer have my windows to the outside world anymore. Now,... I sit in a box day after day bored out of my mind doing nothing but watching tv.

I can't fucking stand it anymore

I don't go out,.... I don't talk to anyone,... I am an island. Noone phones me,... noone comes by,... noone knows I even exist anymore,... I have been thrown away and forgotten about as all the loved ones (and I use loved ones loosely) have all dubbed me too difficult to deal with and thrown me away. By the way,... you have to be IN My life for me to ruin it,... but you guys wouldn't even let me in,....

whatever,....

So I made plans. Big plans. final plans. finally get to feel peace plans,...

the only person to care I breath is a troll,.... noone else lifts up that phone to call,... no one knocks on my door just to say hello,... I am alone. Every fucking minute of every fucking day I am alone.

Roll on November so i can die,....

It's all planned and unless someone shows me they care,... 

I will be gone by Christmas,...

Between family who thinks I'm a monster and a troll who thinks it's fun to harass,... I just can't take it anymore,...

and why the fuck should I?????

Roll on November **** 2025,.....

My fucking last day on this cruel planet.

Hey troll,... are you satisfied??? You drove me to suicide,.... is that what you wanted? Now who are you going to harass?

I won't care as I will be dust thrown into the wind by then,...

But know this troll. What you are doing is not right and cruel and HAS caused me to commit suicide. Sleep well tonight troll,.... your a murderer,.....

I close this blog back up to subscribers only 

Only they will know the day I finally die