FUCK YOU Canada for treating us disabled like we don't even exist

I have woken up dispondent. It just seems like life is out to make me miserable. EVERYTHING has fallen apart and I am left with nothing. ODSP is coming after me because I received this settlement so they can stop my payments saying I now don't need them. I am so upset with them I just handed it over to my lawyer. I can't deal with people who's only goal is to make your life hard. I've given up dealing with them. You call and call and call and they never call you back. But when THEY want something,... they want it NOW and demand it. So if they want something,... THEY can go get it as I'm done being left on hold just so they can take my benefit.

Being hit by a car has ruined my life. I made enough to save me in BC and get me back home,... and then refurnish my apartment once I got here. But I didnt make enought to buy anything to get me out of Ontario Housing. And buying is the ONLY way to escape Housing as NOONE WILL RENT TO ME as I am on ODSP and live in poverty and landlords won't trust that we will pay our rent.

I HAVE MONEY IN THE BANK BUT THATS NOT GOOD ENOUGH. What good is all this money if it wont' help me change my situation?

Infact,... it has fucked up my benefits. I now have too much money for benefits - but NOT ENOUGH MONEY TO LIVE ON.

Getting hit by this car has ruined my life. 

And I am so angry at the Canadian government and their attitude. I desperately NEED this new National Disability Benefit that has come out,... but becasue I won't walk five kilometers to get yet another photo copy they cancelled my application.

I do not get this benefit because I can't walk downtown right now. And the guy working for the government on the other end of that phone call? Sounded BORED. When I said I couldn't do that as I wasn't well enough right now,... do you know what he said in his BORED voice??? 

"Ok maam we'll go ahaead and cancel your application then shall I?

The people that work in our government just don't care,.... he offered me no alternative,.... no extended time,... just "ok,.... we'll go ahead and cancel your application" like to him? It was one less person he had to deal with.

So No ODSP,.... No National Benefit,.... I am just not surviving right now. And I feel like the Canadian Government is AGAINST ME and doing everything they can to make my life MISERABLE.

All becasue I couldnt' walk 5 km downtown to get the back of my ID photo copied. I already did the front and every other damn thing they wanted,... but it wasn't good enough. So NO!!!! NO JACQUIE YOU don't get the benefit becasue your a worthless piece of shit.

I hope that man who said that gets Karma someday. Being allowed to decide whethere someone gets help or not is a position he obviously doesn't give one shit about. He COULD have helped me get that benefit but he didn't. Becasue he was BORED and couldn't be bothered.

THIS folks is why I don't plan on sticking around.

I got hit by a car and since then my life has gone down,... down.,... down,... and now they are taking my ODSP too.

Fuck you all,... I'm fucking done,...

I'll be fucking gone before Christmas.

Best Christmas present my family could ever get....

The mentally ill monster ~ GONE!!!

Because society has just made it too hard to get basic fucking needs,...

And I'm fucking done BEGGING!!!!!!!

If it's too hard to get basic needs,... then it's time to end the party.

I hope Canda is proud of themselves as the obviously don't give ONE SHIT about the disabled in their country.