Well last night wasn't good. I went to scoop the litter boxes around 10 last night as I always do so they are clean when I go to bed. But when i went into the utility room where the boxes are kept it was wet. Water had leaked everywhere. It was a mess. I had 4 boxes of new litter sitting on the floor - all now soaked and ruined. I had to drag everything out and call for an emergency plumber. He came by 11 and said something was clogged so he unclogged it and it should be fine now. I left the room empty only becasue it was late and I just wanted to go to bed. This morning I woke up to a wet floor. Good thing I left the room empty. I have put in an emergency call to Housing but who knows when they will finally get here to fix it. Until then I have 3 litter boxes sitting in my livingroom. Nasty,... at least they are scooped.
(udate: plumber just left,... water heater toast,... no hot water until MONDAY,... I can't go without a shower for 4 days,... really housing????)
I also got mad at ODSP and sent them a nasty email saying it's unacceptable to wait 6 weeks for a reply from them. I told them you want my paperwork??? Then fucking call me!!!!! I told them I refuse to sit on hold one more day. If they want me now,... THEY have to call me. I refuse to deal with people who care so little about their clients they can wait 6 weeks to get back to them????? UNACCEPTABLE. And from what I am seeing on social media? Everyone on ODSP is furious with this new phone system. Apparently NOONE is able to get through. We all leave messages (after being on hold for 20 minutes) but no return call,... If people wonder why I feel like such a worhtless piece of shit? THIS is why? To society and all our 'benefit' organizations ~ we are invisable and not worthy. How would you feel if you have been trying to deal with a situation but noone will phone you?????? It's frustrating. But because they are the 'government' ~ they get away with it. WHO is going to fire them???? NOONE.
Also this whole building is getting a new fob system for entry. I hate it as being old fashioned I like having a physical key to open myu door to my aprtment. NOW they are removing the key access and replacing it with electronic fob entry. I already have a fob for my automatic door opener and IT DOESN"T WORK! I have complained to housing but nothing,... so I jsut fight the door manually to get my walker through it. Not easy but whatever,... I get used to shit like this. But now I'm worried that this new system will fail. What if it's a holiday monday and my fob won't let me in my apartment??? Housing is closed. How do I get in? I asked them but they didn't have a great answer. Call Housing and we leave a message and someone will get back to you,.... (Yeah,... I've heard that before). I just know there will be a time when my fob won't work and i won't be able to get into my own home.
Have told you how much I HATE living in this building? This with the bullying and gossip leaves me feeling hopeless.
There has to be ONE person on this planet who has an apartment,... a granny flat on their property,... a tiny home in the middle of nowhere,... ANYTHING that they rent to me. I have the money,... but they just wont' rent to me.
DISCRIMINATION against the poor,...
My dream is to find a home away from people. From relentless gossip and bullying to finally be able to live out my life in peace. Someone,... somewhere,... must have a place for me I can rent,...
Do you know how it makes a person feel when they don't get what everyone else gets without even thinking about it? You feel unworthy and invisable,...
So if this society thinks I'm so unwrthy and invisable,... I guess I will MAKE MYSELF disappear,.... then I really will be INVISABLE.
ODSP (Ontario Disability) You should be ashamed of your organization. For me? You have done nothing but cause me stress and keep me poor with all your damn rules and regulations. I'm ready to say Keep your damn ODSP,... cuz I won't need it where I'm going,...
Hopefully,... once I'm dead heaven will be a bit more kind,....
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