So with that, I got back on the internet and I started researching a vacation more seriously. And I think I CAN do it even without a car. I have been all across Canada from Quebec all the way to BC. But I have NOT done the east coast which is why I have settled on there. I am open to any province really but this is the one people have been recommending the most. So I looked into it. And there are package deals I can do. If I can get to Toronto airport and I know I can,... then I can fly to St. Johns Newfoundland. Once there it sounds like there are things close enough to walk to or take a taxi. I put up a post on Facebook in a Newfoundland group and the response was overwhelming. The locals all wanted to help. It was amazing. So much hospitality and I'm not even there yet. So I put a post on my timeline asking if anyone is interested in coming with me. But if now,... I am happy to go on my own.
I need this. My life is so stale and empty and miserable. I got this money but have found out it can't actually help get me out of Ontario Housing which devastated me as that is the only thing I want right now. But,... instead of giving up, I decided to use the money for trips instead. I may be trapped in this prison everyday but theres no reason why I can't get away for a great vacation each year now. My nana always said "a change is as good as a rest" and she is right. I think a vacation away from here once a year can really change my outlook. I would also love to rent a cottage for a week each summer but this is proving much more challenging as without a car how would I get to Muskoka area. It's the forest so it's not ;ole they have taxis and buses,.. I would need a ride right to the cottage front door and so far I can't see a way of doing this. I'' keep trying but I dont hold out much hope.
Without a car almost all of my plans can't happen. But maybe newfoundland can,...
I would plan it for next summer. Give me something to look forward to. But I worry about my health as I have not been well at all lately,... and I worry that something will go wrong. In my life nothing seems to go smoothly and I have faced many times where I make plans and then get told I DON'T QUALIFY and can't go. There always seems to be a hidden problem that prevents me from doing stuff. So I wouldn't even get excited until I knew for sure it is really going to happen.
I couldn't bear one more disappointment.
I hate this life. I have this money and all I want is out of Ontario Housing. But noone will rent to me,....
What good is this money if it wont' help me escape this prison?????
Why do others seem to get what they want and need without issues while I always seem to run into problems and never get,... WHY?????
So i am almost afraid to hope that a vacation could actually happen. Fingers crossed,... as I really, really need this.
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