I am so discouraged,.... I have been on this laptop researching vacations for weeks now. But what I am finding out is,... without a car I am not going on vacation anywhere,..
One more thing not available to me,....
I have the money,... but with no transportation the world is CLOSED
Fuck my life,.... time to die
I was so excited to plan a dream vacation only to see it's never going to happen either,....
NOTHING is available to me in this life - NOTHING
SO why the fuck am I here??????
I'm not allowed to move,... I'm not allowed to have family,... I'm not allowed to have a car or drive or have a life,.... not even go on vacation??????
my whole fucking life is NO,... NO,.... NO,....
others are allowed, and get,.... but not you,.....
If I can't even get away from here for a vaction? There is no hope at all for me anymore,.... It's time to give in and die,...
I refuse to sit here in Gods waiting room until my heart stops,..... bored alone and in pain,...
But If it won't stop on it's own,... then I'll help it stop,....
Cuz I'm done being bored, alone and in pain,....
I just want to die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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