ODSP is now DEMANDING to see my settlement as they want to send it to their legal team to see if I still qualify for ODSP. I am so fed up with their demands and controlling ways I just want to cancel ODSP altogether. From the beginning of when I started receiving this benefit my life has changed completely for the NEGATIVE. They control EVERY ASPECT OF YOUR LIFE.
You are NOT ALLOWED to receive (form anyone) more than their $1480 a month (or whatever it is now I don't know as I was off of it for so long after my accident) but it's UNDER $1500. IF I receive mon ey on TOP of that from somewhere else ~ ODSP TAKES IT AWAY so that I STILL only receive their $1480.
This benefit is designed to KEEP YOU IN POVERTY and never let you escape. I know,... becasue I have tried several times but only managed to get thrown bvack into this poverty and ODSP's oppresive state.
NO YOU DO NOT DESERVE ANYMORE THAN $1480 a month so just shut up and be grateful.
Think about it,.... Could you live off of $1480 a month??? Of course not,... it's immpossible. But if you do find more money,... ODSP 'absorbs' it into something i still don't undertstand so that we never make more than $1480.
Now,... heres something no one knows. My settlement money had came in. I have some money in my bank account right now. (At least I think it's a lot of money but to most people it wouldn't be much). But to someone in my position I thought it was gold. In the end,...it wasn't,... it wasn't nearly enough to change my life. It saved me in BC,... But I still can't escape this poverty. Why? Because I didn't make enough to BUY property (which apparently the only way I am escaping this place) but I made enough to effect my benefits. NOW,... ODSP has "heard" from someone (again my troll) that I came into a bit of money. (I would LOVE to know who is dong all of this tattling on me trying to ruin my life!!!!)
So now ODSP is DEMANDING I send them my settlement document so their legal team can go threw it and decide if I am worthy enough of still receiving ODSP.
Heres the problem. I took that settlenment money and after realizing that NOONE WOULD RENT TO ME STILL the money was no good to me. So I put it into a GIC for one year. I cannot touch it for one year. NOW,... ODSP is saying I don't deserve ODSP anymore becasue of this settlenment. If they stop my disability payments - I am fucked as my settlement money is LOCKED and I cannot touch it.
So how am I suppose to live now??? With just my CPP. $851.51 a month. My rent is over $600 (with the housing benefit I have I get a break)
That settlement money is for pain and suffering. I lost the use of my right hand and still have other deficits that effect my life every single day.
ODSP has no fucking right to even threaten me with stopping their payments. I was hit by a car. NOT MY FUCKING FAULT. Yet, ever since my life has changed. Benefits taken away,... no health care,... no help at all for anything,... yet,...
now they want to take away my ODSP.
I would LOVE to know who called them and tattled. WHO even knows I got a settlement? Tonya fucking Halls knows,... that's who. Again, I cna't prove anything. But someone is trolling me calling all my benefits and saying I got a settlement and shouldnt' get my benefit anymore,... WHO would be so low to do that??? And why? If ODSP stops my beneifits I WILL BE HOMELESS BY SPRING! Whoever is trolling me is deliveratly trying to get me homeless. Hmmm,.... that sounds familiar Tonya Halls,... and even if it isn't her? Well she has form and has done it to me before and succeeded so why would I think she would stop now.
Whoever it is,... you have fucked me up royally as if ODSP takes away my benefit - I have nothing to live on and can't pay rent or eat and will end up losing this apartment.
I feel so hunted,... so worthless,.... why is everyone trying to make my life so hard??? What the fuck did I ever do to you to deserve losing my income and my HOME???? What the fuck did I ever do to you????
So becasue ODSP would never call me back,... I sent them an email basiclaly saying if you won't answer your phone or call back??? Then heres my lawyer - you can do what you need to do on your own time. I am out of it. I am not sitting on hold multiple times to do YOUR work and end up losing my benefit. If you want to stop my benefit then YOU can do the work of calling my lawyer and asking for the settlement YOURSELF on your own time. I am so sick of them and there untouchable office that you can't get through but trhey never call you back,....
So I have set a date,... for THAT day. I am so depressed,... heartbroken that I am so worthless to this society that I can't bear to stick around.
Plans have been made,... we just wait for the date.
I don't want to hear "Why did she do it?" Becasue I have been asking for help for YEARS and you all turned your backs on me.
So you have no say or judgement in what happens now,
You don't give me enough to live on,... and then trhreaten to take away what I still have,...
You don't give health care and I am falling apart DESPERATE for a physical as I KNOW there is something seriously wrong with my body,...
And today,... the decision was sealed when I decdided to go and do some laps. (walk the hallways here for exercise) I can go down staris but not up them so I do floor by floor going down the stairs and then take the elevator back up and do it all over again. But it's nerve wracking as I am terrified of running into Darren or Mark. And what happened this morning? I ran into Mark. I just came down the hall as he was getting off the elevator. This is how much he has effected me,... My body started to shake,... I froze in place,... then I did an about face and RAN down the hall to an alcove where I was out of sight and I HID until he entered his apartment.
THIS IS NOT LIVING. This is existing in fear.
So the date is picked,... the method chosen,... and unless someone knocks on my door with help,... I will be dead and buried by Christmas,...
I hate this fucking world and I can't wait to leave it,.....
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