Now I KNOW for sure I have been black-listed. There is a gentleman here who moved in about 6 months ago. I have had about 5 or 6 pleasant conversations with him and I thought we got along. But he was one of the guys who heard the video of Darren terrorizing his cat and did nothing. Infact the next day he was practiacally hugging darren in the gazebo. Obviously all the guys rallying around him in support. So I have to wonder,... do they condone animal abuse? Or do they just believe darren and his campaigne of hate? Anyway,... I actaully liked this newer kid. He seemed nice. But after he was one of the guys who got up and left everytime I came out to the gazebo it was obvious he is "team-darren". But today I ran into him in the lobby. I couldn't help myself. I just came right out and asked him "Have I done anything to you to upset you?" and he did the awkward "Um,.. ah,... I just don't want to,... um,....i dont ,... " and took off. So now I KNOW for a fact (and not just wonder) that he is deliberately blanking me. Do you know how it feels to have done nothing wrong - except phone the police to protect an animal that was being terrorized - and overnight become the monster in the building. darren NEVER went outside before all this. The day it all happened,... for the next month he wernt out to the gazebo for hours and hours and hours to hang out with these guys. So obviously it was planned to go out there and bad-mouth me as much as he could to get everyone to hate me. And heres the thing the guys don't see,.... every since he got his MESSAGE of hate about me out,... he has gone back inside and doesn't come back out much anymore. Just a few minutes a couple times a week now. So it was obvious it was a deliberate campaigne to get everyone to dislike me.

He has told everyone I am a stalker. For the love of God - HOW does he think this? My last email to him was sent to him over 2 months ago now. My last texts to him were over two months ago now. I have not tried to contact him in any other way because as you can read - I DON'T WANT to contact him or run into him at all. So I have been AVOIDING him. But he has told everyone that I am stalking him. Harrassing him. He told the police I won't stop contacting him. Which as I talked about last post - that was a lie and I easily proved it by showing the police our correspondance and he could see there hasn't been any for over 2 months. So how is avoiding him - NOT CONTACTING HIM stalking???? For the record ~ I AM NOT STALKING DARREN GREEN. I dont call him,... text him,.... write him,.... and I have been the one to block HIM on all social media. So if I was the one stalking?Wouldn't I NOT block him? So I could follow him? But I am not. So this "stalking" is all just WISHFUL THINKING ON HIS PART SO HE CAN BAD MOUTH ME TO PEOPLE. And it has worked.

I would love to see him face to face and call him on this. I want him to tell me EXACTLY what it is that I am doing. Because from my side,... we haven't had ANY contact in over 2 months with each other. I have only called the police on him. So obviously it is the POLICE CALL that has pissed him off and now he has to fabricate an excuse to blame me and get everyone to believe him and hate me. DEFLECTION ~ Soooooo fucking playground. Well,... I don't go to school anymore and I certainly don't like playground games.

So I have talked to a friend of mine and we have decided that with all the evidence I have,... if darren continues to slander me with lies I am going to go to the law van and start a complaint and then my friend will take me to Guelph to start proceedings on a restraining order. I DON'T WANT THAT ~ I wouldn't bother but he is continuing and it is having negative effects on my living and mental health. I can't leave my unit without people giving me these looks like they are terrified of me. What the fuck has he been saying about me???

Between poverty,... living in REAL pain 24/7,.... it is hard enough. But add on the paranoid mental health of the kid down the hall and his hate campaign - I just don't want to bother living anymore. My life has been reduced to HE SAID - SHE SAID childish head games. Now I have choosen to remain in my unit only leaving to get mail and bring out the garbage. This is a hardship for me. I am angry and resentful that this kid has done this to me. Especially when all I ever tried to do was help him. He's an ungrateful little shit who can't even recognize when people helped him. He has "walked away angry" from all his friends. Lee,... Dylan,... Me.,. and thats only from the few years I have known him. I am actually concerned because I know people like Darren can't let go. And until something else distracts him - he will continue to tell everyone I am stalking him. What a joke. There is not one piece of evidence to show I am stalking him. Because I am not. It is all in this kids paranoid mind.

So now,... I'm fucking miserable. And theres not a damn thing I can do to change this situation because being poor and living on $1308.00 a month you don't get options and choices to move. THIS is the bottom of the rung. There is nowhere else you can afford. I am FORCED to live here. Just another reason to go out and find me some fentynal.

Heres a message for you darren green,... You fucking hate me SO much??? Go out and find some fentanyl and put it in my mailbox outside my door (the mailbox you stole the OntariovHousing Memo from) and I will kill myself. JUST FOR YOU ~ YOU FUCKING ARRAGANT ENTITLED LITTLE PRICK. You KNOW you are wrong. You KNOW you are lying,... but you are too scared to admit you terrorized your cat so you have to distract by destroying me. You selfish little bastsard. You know I haven't done a damn thing wrong except call the police on you and THATS why your so mad. Not becasue I am stalking you or wahtever else your twisted mind believes. Your acting skills are Oscar worthy,... so help me out fucker - go find me some fentanyl and I will be out of your hair forever. Do it annonymously if you like,... but just do it. You have made my life a fucking misery anyway...