I got outside yesterday!!! Yeah!!!! I can't tell you how good it felt to feel the sun and the spring breeze on  my face. Fresh air! I always knew that if I could just get outside for a bit, life would look more bearable. It wasn't for long as it was still quite cold out - but it was enough to rejuvinate my brain and feel a bit better.

I think Darren Green is digging his own grave and I for one couldn't be happier. I dont even have to lift a finger. He was given notice he is no longer allowed to smoke in his unit. But does he stop? No,... he has continued to smoke non-stop in his unit all day long. Why? Because he is better than the rest of us so the rules don't apply to him. Or so he believes. But this is PERFECT! Because even though it won't be me doing the snitching (I dont need the retaliation) I know others are writing him up. Why? Because I have just learned that NOONE likes Darren in the gazebo and they have all realized this is our opportunity to get rid of him once and for all. All we have to do is let him smoke inside - dig his own grave himself - and then a handful of others have been writing him up unbeknownst to Darren, he believes these people are his friends. They wouldn't do that to him. But they dont like him and they have all banded together to use this opportunity to get him evicted and out of our lives forever,... There are 2 for sures and 1 maybe who are going to do this. (I have no part in it - I am just overhearing the plans). Darren Green is going to get what he deserves - finally - and I don't have to do a thing. I couldnt' have planned this better. So either he will get his eviction warning and stop smoking in his unit (like the rest of us have to do) or he will continue to smoke in his unit and get evicted. And when he does he will blame everyone else but himself. Darren Green has never been at fault for anything. It's always someone else. The man has never owned up to anything. He is a coward. So,... this is great news for me. I dont' have to lift a finger but I get to see him evicted (or atleast put in his place when he realizes he is not liked in the gazebo). Does this mean I am finally vindicated? People actually see what he is really like and they want him gone too???? (I didn't know others didn't like him either!!!! that was good to hear) Thank you God,... I have prayed for this for years,.... 

Well I gave in and placed another grocery order. I can't stand wasting money on deliveries. I had to spend $20 on the delivery. On a very tight budget - this hurts. But I just can't get myself to the grocery store due to the weather. I am now out of everything so had to break down and place an order. $188.00 for a month of groceries. It's not much and I end up living off of cereal, hamburgers and chicken thigh on a bun. But I won't complain as I know some people don't even have that. At least I have food. And for that I am grateful.

We lost people again on my floor. A 94 year old woman passed away. And now I hear my friend 2 doors down is leaving. People hate living here. This guy said if he didn't get the hell out of this building it would have killed him,... (sound familiar?) How did he get out??? How can I get out??? But maybe,.... if we can get rid of Darren Green - I won't have to get out. I love my unit. It's clean and well maintained. It's the people. The Darrens,... The Tonyas,.... The Marks,... people who would con their own grandmother for attention. 

When I was growing up, I never dreamed that at 62 I would be living in poverty in Ontario Housing with no transportation or doctor,.... what the hell happened????? And sadly, it's not just me. Thousands and thousands of folk living in Ontario are lsoing their livlihoods. Their jobs,... their homes,.... Ontario is imploding and taking down all the good folk with it. 

I dont' like Ontario and Canada right now. I resent what our governemnt has done. They have ruined thousands of lives and now don't know how to fix it. Thank God I am 62 and on the way out. I would hate to be 25 and know I had years ahead in my future and nothing to survive it,....

Canada is dying,.... and my heart is broken for the home I used to love and be so proud to live in.

What has happened to my world?????