TIME TO DIE

I had the worst fucking night of my life last night. The pain,... the numbness,... was out of control and unbearable. 

I will not spend one more night in pain like that.

Last night proved to me that no help is ever coming - I needed it last night but it wasn't there.

I am done.

Today I make plans to go

I am NEVER spending one more night in that kind of pain ever again because now

I WILL BE DEAD

I make plans today becasue this pain is now unbearable and noone seems to be able to help

no help = SUICIDE

fuck you all for not caring or giving one fucking shit

Now you don't have to care 

I'll be gone by the time the week is over. And just knowing that I wasn't good enough for ONE FUCKING PERSON to pick up the phone and help me see a doctor. But noone did becasue I am hated and noone likes me. Never have I ever felt so alone and unwanted in my fucking life,.....

I JUST NEED TO DIE