Life on ODSP

I got paid today.  $1308.00 total. It's been 2 hours since I saw the money had been deposited into my account and most of it is already gone. I paid my bills,... I placed a grocery order,... and now I have just under $100 left. I still have to walk over to Freshco and buy my perishables (fruit and veg and milk etc,...) as I don't trust delivery to do those items as I'm afraid they will 'sit' somewhere and unthaw while waiting to be delivered. So in my grocery order I only get non-perishables. Now I have just under $100 to get a months worth of what I still need.

It is December. And THIS is why I have cancelled Christmas. I don't have ONE PENNY to contribute to a holiday or celebration in any way shape or form. By the time I go to Freshco (hopefully this afternoon) the $100 I have left in my account will be gone. The first few days of the month and my money is already gone for December. THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING LEFT OVER FOR A CHRISTMAS. Thank you Doug Ford and the Ontario Provincial Government for that,....

So I had already made the decision to not celebrate. And once that decision was made it was a tiny bit easier. The pressure to BUY is gone. I don't have money for all my basic needs ~ I can hardly afford to buy gifts for people. So NO ~ CHIRSTMAS IS WELL AND TRULY CANCELLED THIS YEAR AND EVERY YEAR TO FOLLOW,....

And with the groceries I did get,... I have to ration those and make it last for the whole month. It will,... but barely. And it's not good wholesome fun food. I literally live off of milk and cereal,... hamburgers on a bun,... and either a piece of meat OR veggies stirfried (but rarely do I get them together in one meal as a meat pototaoe veg plate). I water down my drinks to make them last for the whole month. When I first went on ODSP about 4 years ago I was 170 pounds. I am now 125. It's a humiliating way to live.

But this is my life. Paid $1308,.... and two hours later it is pretty much gone and now I have nothing for the remainder of December. NOT A DIME! And this is how the people living in poverty survive. 

I was lucky enough to get an invite from Becky to go to hers for Christmas morning breakfast. I grabbed at the chance. Atleast I won't be sitting at home alone. Sad. There are usually football games in and around Christmas Eve/day and boxing day although I haven't looked ahead to the schedule yet. But I know there will be a few games to watch over the holidays. That will be a distraction for me at least. I have no plans to spend any time with my girls as just like last year they don't even think of me. They right away assume they will spend it with their Dad. Whatever,... If you don't hope ~ you can't get disappointed,.... so I never ever hope,.. Nope,... it will just be me and Maggie for the whole holiday season. 

Merry Fucking Christmas Happy Shiny People,... and Doug Ford ~ think of us on ODSP and OW when your spending the day with ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING YOU WANT AND NEED and don't give a thought to us who are so broke we can't even afford to celebrate at all,.... HAVE A NICE FUCKING DAY DOUG FORD!!!! But you always do put yourself first so no change there then,.... to hell with us who go without. Do I sound angry?? Yeah,... I'm pretty fucking resentful at our government.

Not even December 1st yet and i am already broke for the month. 

Welcome to living in the world of poverty on ODSP.