I have woken up feeling very heavy this morning. There wasn’t a lot of sleep last night. I couldn’t shut my brain off. My heart is broken that I am completely alone. And the pull to end my life is so strong today. I woke up sad and empty and numb. The feeling of being totally hated ~ is still sitting heavy on my heart. I just want to die. My heart i broken and I can’t stand the pain.

There is no lonlier feeling in the world than having no one and then knowing everyone around you hates you. It’s a feeling i cannot describe because it goes very deep in my soul. It fills my whole body leaving me hating myself. HATING myself.

All I want to do today is DIE.

No one will even notice let alone care. And the people in this building can cheer,….

The sadness in my heart is unbearable,…. I have never experienced anything so painful before in my life. This feeling has to end. But the only way to end it is to die.

It is all so clear now,… die and it all goes away,…. RELIEF!

So today,…. THAT is all I am thinking about and planning,… how to end this pain because it’s now become unbearable,….

I JUST NEED TO DIE!!!!!!

I JUST NEED TO DIE!!!!!

I JUST NEED TO DIE!!!!!