For such a crappy day yesterday I was hoping for something better today. It's game day here in my house so of course it's a better day,... It's just after dinner and I am on game three.
I got a good nights sleep for a change. I don't know what was different. But I got a full 8 hours and didn't wake up until 9am. I was just relaxing having my cup of coffee when Kirk texted to ask if I needed a taxi-service for a bit to get caught up. My kitchen is empty along with a lot of other stuff so I jumped at the chance. I was able to go to the pet store to get Maggie's food and then Walmart to get stuff there. In fact I got all my shopping for the whole month done this morning. RELIEF. And on top of that I was treated to an egg and bacon breakfast. (How sad I get so excited about food!) Bacon is pretty much non-existent in my budget so when I do get it, it's a real treat. And on top of all THAT he chucked a few bucks into my bank through an e-transfer for me. THAT gave me a security buffer I was so desperately in need of. I was also able to pick up a few more things I was needing.
It's funny in life who you think your tribe is. Who your people are. For a lot of my life I have been a gypsy and lived in a lot of different places. I moved almost every 2 years of my life. You don't make a lot of quality friends doing that. Every time I got close to someone I had to up sticks and move again. A lot of acquaintances but not a lot of quality close friends. And I was thinking about that the other day. Someone asked me, When you have some great news or some bad news ~ who do you think of that you want to tell? And I thought about it and realized it's not my family. Well obviously it's not as they don't have a lot of interest in me to the point were pretty much estranged. I have two people in my life. Becky and Kirk. Becky I don't see a lot as her life is the opposite of mine and is too busy. But Kirk has ended up being the constant in my life the past few years. When i have been in trouble and needed help it was never my girls who came to my rescue - it was Kirk. HE has been my tribe - my person - my family. He is like my best friend.
But how sad that reaching the age of 60 I have so few people in my life. Poverty and pain changes you and makes you sour. No one hangs around when your miserable. But Kirk and Becky did. My family. My tribe.
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