Maybe it's just time to give up,....

This is exactly what I mean by Ontario Housing not caring what happens to their tenants AT ALL! I put a letter into the complaints box two days ago basically saying Tonya Halls has made my life a misery and I have packed up and left my apartment to go and stay with a friend because I no longer feel safe. So obviously I am not happy living here. Obviously I am desperate. Did Housing even contact me? NO,... In fact I'm kind of waiting for a letter to reprimand me for leaving my unit empty and that they will probably tell me they are evicting me then. Instead of seeing someone desperate,.... they just step over me and move on,...lets refill this unit as fast as we can,... if she doesn't want it lets give it to someone else. THAT is what they see,... not someone who fled in fear from a neighbour  making my life a misery,..... NO they don't see that at all,.... just a mentally ill tenant with ISSUES that they really don't give a shit about. So I know I am NEVER getting help from Ontario Housing. THEY JUST DINT CARE!!!!!!!!!!

THEY SERIOUSLY DO NOT CARE ABOUT THE SAFETY OF THEIR TENANTS

So as far as Housing is concerned,... I told them I am scared living here and have packed a bag and left. And of course we all know I have no place to go to escape to. I don't have money for a hotel or B&B or another apartment. So instead I am HIDING away in my apartment unit. Trying to be as quiet as I can. In the hopes that people will think I am no longer here. I certainly don't want to be,... but I just don't have any options. I am a 60 year old woman HIDING in my own apartment so peole will think I have moved to finally get some peace. That doesn't seem right at all!!!

I can't live with Kirk. The offer was so generous but I know it wouldn't work out. I know from experience that I need my OWN SPACE. I can't live communally with people as my habits and hours are completely different than theirs and I would just cause disruption and in the end I would make everyone unhappy and then I would be left with no place to go at all. So I need a place with just me where I can lock my door and be alone and feel safe. But I don't even almost have enough for that. A person needs about $2000 a month just to live a frugal life. I live on $1308,.... it's inhumane as right now I don't even have enough to get myself to a safe place to live.

I fucking hate my life. I have NO CONTROL over anything I do. This isn't my life,... and maybe it's time to go back to revisiting the fentanyl again,.....