A Good Day!

I still haven't been to sleep yet from last night. I think I am getting by on anxiety and coffee right now. After my wing-fest in bed last night I grabbed a two hour nap and was right back up again. Sleep just seems to elude me these days. But I had plans today so I needed to grab a shower. Then P** came and picked me up and we went out for a drive. She had to pick up her little Molly from the dog groomers just out of town. It was a perfect day for it. The sun is out and it's not too cold. And then getting to hold Molly all the way home was a treat. Never underestimate a good dog cuddle. Rejuvenates the soul.

We then came back here and finished off the leftover pizza for lunch. I sure am eating well this week! Now that P** is gone I am just relaxing in front of the tv. My balcony door is wide open trying to get every ray of the sun inside as I can. Spring is definitely on the way.

And this has got me thinking. I have not had a holiday in 24 YEARS! I have had overnight stays at friends once in a blue moon but a paid-for - actually go away - vacation I haven't had in nearly a quarter of a century. So I started to think of what I wanted to do this summer to give me something to look forward to. And it dawned on me that the one thing I enjoy the most is actually quite simple to do. Campfires. Now I'm a little long in the tooth (and disabled) to actually go camping anymore. But what if I rent a cottage for a week? So I pitched it to P** and she thought it might be something to think about too. I realize I could never afford something like this normally. But what if,.... what if this personal injury case I am in actually gives me a few bucks? I wouldn't need much. P** would take care of the driving/gas and I would take care of the cost of the rent of the cottage and then we would pool our resources for food. I think it could actually be done. It may not be this summer but next summer for sure. My case has just started and will probably drag on before this summer is over. Not to mention most cottages have probably already been booked for the summer of 2024. Maybe THIS summer we can just do campfires in her backyard. But the point of all this is,... I looked forward. For years now I have not felt like I have had any future at all. So I have had nothing to look forward to. And today,... without me even realizing it,... I felt safe enough inside to actually look forward. To think I may actually have a future. This has to be a positive thing. I can't remember the last time I had something to save for and look forward to. A goal! Sometimes all you need is a goal to continue going forward.