For the past 6 months I have purposely been isolating in my apartment unit because of neighbors. I thought if I just hide away ~ I will be left alone. But that hasn't happened. My home is suppose to be my safe place. The place where I can retreat and hide and the world can't touch me. I thought I would be safe here in my own home.
But last night proved to me I am NEVER going to be left alone living in this building. Yesterday when I took my garbage out, I noticed that someone had taken magic marker and scribbled on an Easter bunny Tonya (the tattle-tale) had bought from the dollar store and had hanging on her door. I'm going to make it perfectly clear on here. I DID NOT DO IT! I knew I would be blamed, I am for every single thing that occurs on this floor. So as I was already video taping as I always do now to protect myself, I did hold the camera up to her door and say,... "Look,... I see the vandalism but it was not me" and I continued on back to my apartment. I also have my doorbell camera that proves not only when I went in and out my unit but it also shows that over 20 other people have used that hall as well over the past few days. I knew trouble was coming the minute I saw that damn bunny. Then my friend Kirk came to take me to the walk-in clinic as I am having some issues with my hands since the car accident. I forgot all about the damaged bunny on her door. But when we got back,... the POLICE were waiting for me. We saw their cruiser in the parking lot when we pulled in and we even laughed saying Tonya called the police on me,... laugh laugh laugh,.... not thinking it was true. It was. And THAT was the last straw that broke the camels back. This is getting way ~ way ~ out of hand. I DID NOT DO THIS and when Kirk and I sat and tried to think of who would? We both came to the same conclusion. SHE DID THIS HERSELF to set me up. The police officer mentioned she READ IN MY BLOG,.... so caught ya Tonya,... you are stalking me and getting info by reading my private and personal and anonymous blog. There is no reson on this earth YOU should even know that blog exists let alone find it and stalk me,... I think what I wrote about her really hit a nerve and pissed her off. She needed to get back at me and this is how she did it. What a child. An immature manipulative child. I can no longer stay in this building.
So I wrote a complaint to housing (not that they will care let alone respond) saying I am leaving. I don't feel safe in my home anymore and I have been forced out to go and stay and sleep on a friends couch. I let them know I have been feeling this way for 6 months. In fact, my apartment is half packed in boxes already just waiting to get the word I can move. But there is no place to move so I am TRAPPED!
I feel like I have absolutely NO CHOICES in my life. I am TRAPPED!!!!!
How do you get the likes of Tonya Fucking Halls out of your life once and for all??? She's like a stubborn verruca that won't go away and just sits there annoying you over and over again,...
The only way this situation is going to get resolved is if I move. But I don't have the money to even almost afford anything else. THIS IS THE BOTTOM RUNG. Ontario Social Housing.
Kirk has offered for me to go and stay with him but I am very independent. I like living alone. I am used to being solitaire and need it. I have lived on my own for 21 years. You get set in your ways living alone for so long. I live a different lifestyle that's not always conducive to living with other people. I quite often can't sleep and therefore up wandering around watching tv or cleaning or even having a bath. When you live alone you don't disturb anyone. But Kirk lives with his two adult children. I can see my lifestyle being destructive to their sleep. I don't want that. I am just the kind of person who needs to live alone in their own space. My own contained apartment. It has to do with ME - not the people i would live with. My mental illness and my physical issues alone wouldn't be easy. Then theres alos my ODSP. Moving into anything but a legal apartment I could lose my ODSP wage altogether. So right now I am feeling very trapped. I KNOW the answer to this problem is me moving but I am not in a position to be able to do that. I am TRAPPED!
I am trapped,... I am trapped,... i am trapped,....
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