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He is a Traverse Patient which means he is a brain injury patient. I get this. I am not a cold hearted person. I understand he has deficits.
But since the day I moved in here to Government Housing, it has been one person after another. Addicts,... alcoholics,... mental health patients,... brain injury patients,.... From day one I (and everyone else in this building) has had to put up with one or two tenants that are beyond annoying and harrassing. First it was Stephen,.... the Gary,... then Zeva,.... now this Keith or Kevin or whatever his K name is. I put this clip on instagram with a caption "I don't feel safe living here. just one of many trenants that leave me unsettled"
Someone wrote back that have I tried being nice to him and talking to him? Maybe he didn't imply it, but it sure did sound like he was saying don't be a cold hearted cow. He has issues so give him a break and be nice to him.
So I want to set the record strait. I am not uncaring. Infact this particular person was aggressive and threatening to me and two others a few months back. I didn't confront him or have any contact with him at all about it. Instead I quietly went in and spoke with his caregiver and then I let it go. So I have been patient with this person in the past. Infact,... I have been patient with all of the people in the past. But when you end up with Police banging on your door because these other people live in a different reality and have told the police you are out to kill them,.... not once but MULTIPLE times,... you tend to lose patience fast. These people are INTRUSIVE.
And what men don't seem to think about is,... women are much more vulnerable to these people than they are to men. I am 5 foot 2. I weigh 125 pounds. I am not fully able-bodied and rely on a walker to get around. In short,... when these folks lose it,... and they do ~ often ~ I am not capable of protecting myself physically. So it's frightening!
Also,... this is my HOME. I pay my rent and I deserve not to be harrassed and annoyed by people who don't even live in my reality. I have enough problems of my own. But since I moved in here it has been one person after another bothering me. So I think I have the right to not be so patient with all these people anymore. I HAVE TO LIVE HERE 24/7 and these people have prevented me from feeling safe. I now hide away inside my unit where I know I won't run into them.
So to the MAN who wrote that commnet on Instagram? I don't know if you meant for me to feel badly about that post. But I did feel bad. But I don't have the patience anymore. These folk have made living in my own building immpossible and miserable.
Let me be clear,.... I DO NOT FEEL SAFE LIVING HERE IN THIS BUILDING ANYMORE.
But theres not a damn thing I can do about it. But to have to deal with it and then have comments like try being nice to him????? as if I'm a cold bitch for complaining,..? Then I challenge you to spend 3 months living here with me. You will change that mind in a hurry. And YOU too will find yourself hiding inside to avoid the people who live here. Which is impeding on my quality of life. I am forced to hide in isolation!!!! Thats not living,... thats hiding. And I already can't walk far or have a car to get away so I am TRAPPED!
I am very patient and kind on a normal basis. But day in and day out,... I have had enough and don't feel safe anymore. I just want and need out of this building. Even if I have to DIE to do it!!
When you have no joy in your life at all to begin with, and nothing to look forward to anymore. Then having THIS stuff on top of poverty and pain and isolation just makes life unbearable. I USED to be kind and caring and patient,... but life has sucked that right out of me now,...
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