FED UP"

It’s Saturday morning. No Premier League games today. The season ended. Now I am at a loose end. Instead I watch YouTube. Catching up on mindless stuff I won’t even remember watching later,…

I am not feeling well again today. My blood pressure ~ which had slowly came down over the day yesterday ~ is now back up in the 190’s. Dangerous reading. but again,… I will not be asking for help. Becasue i can’t stand one more day living in this building.

What I would like to do is to sit outside and enjoy the weather. But I can’t. Becasue every time I leave my unit,… something happens with Tonya Halls down the hall. She has a doorbell camera now and it seems she waits for me to go by her door and then either her or her son come out with some imagined complaint. I just can’t bear it anymore. So instead,… I will stay inside and do nothing but watch tv again. I feel so trapped. I can’t even have a normal life here. I feel like I have to hide away to protect myself and THAT IS SO UNFAIR. I want to go outside! but if I do,… the cunt will find yet something else I have supposedly done and will make a scene infront of all her little minions who have nothing better to do but sit and listen to her lies and gossip. I have tried EVERYTHING to avoid her. but now,… with her doorbell camera I dont’stand a chance. Everything i do I need to walk past her door,… garbage,… laundry,… elevator,… mail,… everything I do she sees. She admit years ago that she will sotp at nothing to get me evicted and she has been true to her word. She has made my life a misery where I can’t even enjoy my own building. I have to hide in order to stop the accusations. I have to HIDE ~ HIDE! to feel safe,…..

I am giving it 3 months. If I can’t find another place to live I will do what I said I would do,…. end it. As living here right now feels more like PRISON than a life.

WHY do people gossip and lie???? Do they realize they literally make people suicidal???? And more to the point,… even if they did know,… would they care,…. I can tell you they wouldn’t. As Tonya halls not only doesn’t care,…. she thinks SHE IS THE VICTIM! I just don’t get this unjust world sometimes. But if you think i am going to stick around and let that cunt destroy me,… I will not. I will die before I am forced to live here any longer with her and her harrassment and bullying. In the end,… she flutters her little eyelashes and cries to housing,…. and they believe,…. My life is being destroyed by a cunt that is getting away with it.

But you know what,… when I am gone,… she will pick antoher victim. Because thats what these gossips and liars do. They need drama,… they thrive off of it,… so if there isn’t any around,… they create it. With me gone,… she will have to find it somewhere else. WHO is going to be her next victim in this builiding? THEN,… and only then,… maybe they will start to see it was HER all along and not me. I was just the target of her vicious tongue. And then,… maybe they might feel a bit bad for how they believed and followed and crucified me,… I hope they all feel shame when they realize how she bullied me. But they won’t,… life is unfair and it doesn’t work that way,…. Tonya Halls will always win with her fluttering eyelids and dramatic crying,…. Oscar winning performance,….