I am so sick of Ontario Housing. It just seems to me that all they do is hound us - threaten us - and basically make living here feel like your in a college dorm. Do this? and your evicted!!!!!!!!!! I never feel like my housing is secure. I always feel like I can be thrown out on the street for anything at any time!! Thats not a nice way to live - with the threat of homelessness hanging over you. It's cruel!!
Let me start off by saying a lot of folk that live in this building are challenged in some way. Myself included. So already we are not "normal" We are the poverty stricken,... the disabled,... the mentally ill and/or addicts. Now of course not everyone is afflicted with one of these, but I have found that poverty is usually people with deficits that the 'normal' society folk dislike about us. A lot of us have no family as we have been deemed 'different' and thrown away. Not just me,... but many, many people living here are alone and comprimised in some way shape or form. In short, we already have a hard time and struggle with our lives. Life for us is lonely and hard,... But Ontario Housing has made it UNBEARABLE for me.
I have never had problems with anywhere I have lived until I moved into this building. Suddenly I was open season for gossips, liars and bullies. And I learned very, very quickly you will not get any help from these problem people from Ontario Housing. In fact, my experience has been when I did reach out to housing for help, I was told I was not going to get it and more to the point I became a "Karen" to them and am now black-listed as a trouble-maker. And ever since then,... I get accused of everything that happens on this floor. Usually by Tonya but who knows,...?
So today when we received yet another 'stern threatening memo' about smoking I lost it. And I put this up on my door. I dont' know what else I can do to protect myself from the Tonya's and Darren's and Mark's,... Mark literally threatened me! Yet noone did a damn thing leaving me feeling UNSAFE and vulnerable. I still wont' step foot inside that gazebo (our only smoking area) as I don't feel safe. So I guess your allowed to bully around here.
I find housing is very biased. They cater to the ones they like (we have a few suck ups that are insufferable ~ that do nothing but tattle on people) but threaten eviction over and over again to the ones they deem 'annoying'. And I guess going to them about Tonya and Darren and Mark was annoying to them,.... and now I am 'marked' as annoying.
Unlike Tonya, I don't flutter my eyelashes and fake crying to fein innocence. I am Irish with BPD so when I am threatened with punishment for something I didnt' even do (Something Tonya made up in her head to get me in trouble) I get angry and talk back. This has made me someone they now "watch". With housing you have to smile and agree or your a trouble maker. Walking on eggshells around here is an understatement.
So I was forced to put up a cam on the INSIDE of my unit that runs 24/7 ~ a terrible invasion of my privacy ~ but I am willing to do this JUST TO PROVE MY INNOCENCE.
How would you feel if you felt like housing was targeting you and coming after you to get you gone??? That may not be the case,... but that is how it FEELS to me. Constant accusations and threats of eviction.
A lot of us living here need help in many, many ways. Do we get it? NO. Instead we get judged and treatened with eviction.
How much do you want to bet I will be 'reprimanded' for putting this sign on my door? It happened before when my brain injury patient next door neighbour kept calling the police saying I was an Israeli spy who owned both apartment on either side of her and I was spying on her with cameras and sneaking into her unit at night,.... She called the police on me over 25 times!!!! (Yeah everyone knew she was out and out crazy) but did housing help me? NO. Infact they ignored my pleas,... So I put up a sign saying if the police are here because this woman called them on me? I will not be answering the door anymore as it's just harrassment and I know it,... the police know it. But TONYA tattled to housing that the sign "upset' her (she doesnt' even know this woman and lives on the other side of the building so how did she even see this sign - NOSY! yet the sign upset her) and I was threatened again with eviction if I didn't remove it. Again,... they didn't care I was being harrassed by a crazy lady day after day,.... no they catered to TONYA. The sign upset TONYA!!! So Tonya will probobly tell housing that this sign "upsets' her again,....
I am just fed up. Fed up of living here and feeling like I am in some government owned dorm. I'm fed up of being unwell and having no doctor or health care,... I'm fed up of feeling like I am always having to protect myself from the bullies,.... I am not living!!! I am just protecting myself.
There is nothing positive about living here. Except I have a roof over my head. But at what cost? This is why I moved to BC in the first place. To escape living in this building. I don't thrive here,... I have become a recluse to protect myself,... this isn't living,...
And I'm fed up of being invisable to this society. Thrown away to rot and left to fend for myself against an organiztion that loves to make people homeless with their eviction threats. It's how they "keep us in line" like we're some kind of lunatics or something.
Why bother being in the business of housing if your just going to threaten everyone with eviction who lives there evertime they fart,....
Not my kind of life and I will do what I need to do to escape it,....
My blood pressure was extremely high again today so maybe today is the day I stroke out or die,...
Roll on heart attack and let me have some peace finally.
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