I am so angry today. I don't want to be here,... i did not want to wake up today,... I wanted to die in my sleep to fianlly feel peace.

But I woke up. My body is full of anxiety today. It is causing me to feel very uncomfortable. My nerves are shot and I cant bear it.

I feel like I am going to lose it and take my scalpel and slit my throat. Because I just cant stand being alive anymore,... 

I just need to be DEAD,.....

This feeling I feel inside me is unbearable,...

I have to make it go away,...