I am depressed. Actually,... I don't know if it's actual depression or if it's my situation. I just know I am not getting by on this ODSP $1,169.00 a month. Living on that amount is impossible. And more to the point,... why should I? I didn't ask to be disabled. I didn't ask for Fibromyalgia. I didn't ask to be mentally ill. But because of these things no one wants me and I was thrown away.
Just the thought that no one seems to want me and I was thrown away to the wolves to fend for myself is enough to depress anyone.
But now add that for the rest of my life I have to live in poverty. POVERTY. And why? What did I do that was so terrible in this life that for the past 20 years I have done nothing but struggle. When do I get to rest. When do I get to enjoy? I don't. This is it for me. Poverty and depression.
I don't think I'm going to be hanging around for a whole lot longer.
There is zero JOY. Just struggle and depression.
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