Has anyone else had episodes of hearing things that they know aren't there? I mean, it's weird... I don't 'actually' hear a voice... It's like a thought is put in my head by someone. It's 5:52 in the morning and I haven't slept because I had this 'voice' tell me that a man is just outside my apartment door and he's waiting for me to come out. So all night I kept looking out the peephole and worrying myself into an anxiety ridden mess. Now, I'm sane enough to know that the 'voice/thought' isnt' real ~ but I'm sick enough to have experienced it. It's rather frightening.
I've also been having episodes where my vision gets all distorted. Like just before a person faints things start to swim in front of them. It's kind of like that. I feel detached and weird and my world gets all funny in front of me. Again, i am sane enough to know this isn't real and its just a temporary vision of some such thing but I'm sick enough to have it happen to me. As I'm sure 'normal' people don't experience these things.
Obviously I am not doing well right now. I never leave my apartment anymore because I'm afraid these 'episodes' will happen in public and I will not cope and freak out. I even cancelled a night in with a friend this week because I'm just not coping well and couldn't deal with being with anyone. I just want to be on my own, in my apartment.
I have an appointment with my therapist next week so i know I will have to tell her all of this. But it scares me as I really don't want to go back into the hospital.
So, I just hibernate away in my flat. Sleeping all day and awake all night.... My life is a mess.