I feel so numb... empty... dark...
Is it my medication that makes me feel this way? Or is it the illness?
I want to go off of all my meds. The Seroquel has turned me into a zombie. But without it, I always end up in hospital. I just don't know what to do. I'm so tired. Tired of feeling nothing. Except sadness and darkness and loneliness. I don't have a life.
I just don't want to "be" anymore. I hate this limbo of just barely existing. It's just all so fucking sad